Change

When I say I go too far, I do. In life, there's so much I'd like to stop. So many habits, so many temptations. Sometimes I feel like I'm on the edge of sin. It's scary. To feel like I'm doing something wrong. Is it wrong? It's so hard to not chase after something I want so badly. But right now, it's not something I should be chasing. It's a new life. This fall, it's a new lifestyle. For everyone. My mom, my dad, my sister, my brother..and me. Everything's different now. We're all starting to walk down a separate road. The only thing that ties us back together is that we're one big family. A group of five that loves each other. Other than that we now lead separate lives--most of the time not knowing what the other is doing.

Share. It's the best thing we can do now.

Decisions. I hate them. I tend to chose the wrong ones all the time. Like now. Where's the line drawn? I see no line. I want to develop it, but why is it so hard? I want to do one thing, but when I'm in the middle of everything, I go the other way. I go with what my body tells me to.

Decisions. Are. So. Hard. To. Make.

How will I ever survive? =p