The Most Annoying Thing On The Face Of The Earth - Grades.

I got two grade reports back today... (: English and Math. Stupid English still has a B....But at least I raised it from a - to a +. Doesn't really help that much to my parents unless it's an A though. *sigh....how much better can this get? fml. Math arrived with an A though. haha, just BARELY. I should say A- though.

So I thought I could bribe my parents with my grades. I wanna go to Capture/d/ 2 (aka. Dis-eased). I really do hope they let me end up going..cause it'll definitely be another great experience. Besides, sometimes I actually do think I need some time away from home. =p Away from all the...."drama?". Haha, ok..not really.

Why Why why is time going by so quicklyyy? (: I'm gunna make an abrupt stop to this post..

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What A Nightmare - When The Time Is Right, It Will Change

So I don't really know what to do anymore...Why is it that every single time I'm trying to fix this, they just get even worse? Why is it that every single time I'm trying to fix my attitude towards her, she finds something else to say? It's like I can't run away from evil. I'm stuck. Stuck in a hole that I'll never get out of unless she changes too. It's not only me. It's the family too. They're so unhelpful. It's crazy..I'm always at home doing homework, never getting the chance to go out...but then when they get home, all they can do is yell. These past few weeks I thought were pretty good. Just up until today.

Every single time I want to go somewhere, she just has to throw a fit. She HAS to get mad no matter what. It drives me insane. I can't stop it as much as I want to. And as much as I want to tell someone who will be there fore me, I can't. It's just you and me, my blog. Oh wait, there's God too. Only in times of trouble. Oh, how many times I've prayed for her. So many times I've prayed and asked for her to see what's better. To hold our anger and to speak softly.. There's a verse:
Proverbs 15:1
A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

No matter how hard I try I can't run away from it. Sometimes it makes me think that this verse is a lie...but I'm sure it's not. It just happens to be those times where I can't control anything..even with my softest answer.

My dad was talking about the Israelites in the car coming back from working out last night, and he talked about how they complained so much. After wanting water, they complained about food, and after that, then they complained about water again. Then I was thinking: "That's exactly what I'm going through right now. It's like I can't get rid of the complaints about myself. It goes from my homework, to housework, to me being selfish, and who knows what next... But even so, God was merciful and provided everything for the Israelites....and while they were complaining, he was patient with them. How does he do that? Seriously. I could've exploded at anytime. I guess it just shows how much more sinful we are.

Psalms 40:1 ---
I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.

Will he do the same for me? I hope so...when the time is right.