No One Out There

There's no one out there. I don't know what to do or what to think. I don't want to talk to her. I want her to leave me alone, but that's not happening. She doesn't know how hard it is for me right now. Schools almost starting and fights are arising already. what should I do? what to do? I tried praying but right now my anger's still stirring. This isn't about friends, this isn't about school, this isn't about my future. It's about my feelings.

Mom bought a textbook for me, and it was damaged. She went to read the desciption on amazon and it said that it was missing the front cover. Dad says, "can we still use it?" Mom says, "of course", and dad askes me if it's alright. I didn't even answer and mom said, "Why do you need to ask that?"

I appreciate my dad for thinking about me so much. Sometimes I wish I coiuld work with my dad only. Today, I finished one section of my SAT, corrected it, and went on the computer to finish my pictures. Mom came in and saw me typing. She asked what I was doing, and started exiting all my windows. OMG. I was copying photos for at least 40 mins already, and she just exited it with one click. Guess how I reacted? Okay, it was wrong, but WHO IN THE WORLD wouldn't be mad!? Then she made me stand in the room "reflecting". So supposedly, that'w what I'm doing right now.

I wanna get outta this, but I really have nothing to say to her. It's like she's always able to make dad turn his decisions around and be "on her" side. I wish she would understand me and my personality more. I wish she would stop tugging on my weak points. I really don't wanna talk to her. Why can't she just leave me alone?!

Prayers:

Oh, it's this discussion about prayers again. Do they work? Sometimes I wish that things could change with the snap of my finger. But.......the world doesn't work that way. What if I prayed not to be homeschooled? Would that come true?