After A Full Weekend

Everyone have enough turkey for the year???? Thanksgiving/Fall/Winter is my favorite time for during school because it's the time where you get the most BREAKS. :] Yeah, I need them. Dunno what I'd do without them... There's Thanksgiving and Black Friday, and then just about two weeks after that, we get almost a WHOLE month of winter break. Anyways, back on track:

There's much going on after a full weekend. School starts again, everything is "back to normal". This past couple days have been a really longgggg weekend for me. I'm not sure why but I find that there is always at least one thing bothering me in life. Actually, this weekend there has been a couple things on my mind. I'm not gunna lie here, since honesty is really what this blog of mine is for.

One of the main subjects of my wandering mind is this certain someone. Have you ever felt ignored or felt like you're annoying this one person? I kinda feel like that. It's either I'm being ignored, or I'm just bothering this person too much--I think the second one is more reasonable for this person. I don't really know how to deal with it. It rings in my mind forever and ever till...who knows when.

For some odd--not really--reason, my mind has been stuck on the fact that I might not be able to go to the ECC praise night. Is it really what I need right now--no, I don't think so. I really want to go, but I know that my schedule will hardly allow that. It's a little disappointing to me to think that my mind's not only on going to ECC for the praise night.

This part is really random, but also....something's been triggering me to actually learn how to write and read chinese. Both cantonese and manderin. It's bothering me a lot that I can't read or write it. Now, where should I start???? It's always easier to talk than to do. *sigh

The last thing that's been on my mind for quite sometime now--not only this weekend--is the fact that I want a closer relationship with God. I feel like I've been slacking off a lot lately. Not only have I not been doing my devos, but I feel like I have no energy to fufil anything in life. I have no energy to study hard--which is what I really need to do right now. I really wanna study hard, and get into BC next year. I know what I'm thinking for myself is good, but at the same time, I don't know why it's so hard to put into action. There's only one thing I've been waiting on since what seems like forever. It's still that certain someone I'm waiting for to make my life joyful again. But I shouldn't be waiting. That something that I'm waiting for should be my relationship with God right? It should be all I need. So how do I fix my broken relationship? This relationship is not like others. It's not easy to fix, but it's not impossible.

Goals:

• Develop my relationship with God again.
• Learn how to write and read Chinese.
• Listen to God's calling instead of running off on my own about certain things.
• Control my thoughts.